The time we had were too short.

There's so so so much that I want to tell some of the dearies.

If i cld, I hope I had a whole full day with them.

0629-ians went through ups and downs tgt.

We had joy, we had fun in the season of the sun....

Not forgetting those tears and awful experiences we managed to scrap through..

Till date, I'm still carving those moments deeply in my mind.

3 years, it wasn't either short nor long.

I've made great friends.

I've learn a lot. 

And i believe i matured.

I can't thank these ppl enough whom seen me grow during rough and rocky moments.

Specially to Linda, Val and Shaifullah: Thanks for being with me. Not letting me being alone when you guys knew I needed a shoulder, needed a pair of listening ears, needed somebody. 

To Mentor Mdm Janet Chua: Your words of wanting to be at the graduation to see us since the very beginning of our 1st day till our very last day during poly lives touches my heart. Your selflessness and motherly actions are your virtues that's so respectful to me.

To RX: Hey beloved, I know you were with us the entire time. You've made such a large impact in our lives. Because of you, we became stronger. Because of you, everything changes. Till date, I still wish you didn't leave. Yet, it felt irony because all of us feels you, still. I miss you!

To Louise: My dear! You were amazing to call from Cali! You were a great friend, a great listener and a great class companion... I know many a times you wished you were there for me... Need not self-blame for leaving the country. I am so so so honored to have you with me emotionally. Your encouragement never failed to buck me up. ;)

To my girls from 29: Thanks for watching me grow. Be it good or bad. Thanks for being in my life. I'm so gonna miss you all! and good luck to all! You girls know who you are for being such amazing babes. 

And yup.. Baby, you know you played a great part in keeping me strong and steady. Thanks for being there and believing in me. We've made history. We had made the impossible possible. Love you so much... ;)

I'm withstanding alone in this battle.

I'm gritting my teeth, clenching my fist with my trembling feet.

I'm falling, almost too close; to the bottom of the well.....

I'm covered with new bruises everyday.

Yet, I've got to backbone myself and let myself carry on. Its cold~

How much longer could the lonesome withhold?

I think, I've gotten to my max. 

Yet again.....

I'm constantly reminding myself~

:Hey baoxin. Hang in there. Things would be better, certainly I hope. You've got to be strong, knowing that you are not going to be beaten down. You aren't a weakling to survive. You've got to think that you're going to be okay from those internal injuries.... You know you have to face those nasty remarks, humiliation and criticisms openly. 

Listen.

Take it!

and Breathe in! 

The keyword is "persevere"

Seriously, how quick time flies. 

It came to my mind that its already 9 of May today. Which means... I've already worked for a month! (Congrats to myself)

Yes, being a missy.... Its really tough.

I've being asked to produce so so much consecutively. Especially in my situation.

Preceptor is good, far too good. 

Those feelings of stress can't be describe or illustrate through pure simple words.

At times, I'm even afraid that i can't make it to probation. Its this bad. 

I'm trying my best to stay positive. 

But negative thoughts just come running in and out my brain waves. 

Right now, I'm caught in between my stress peak level. 

In front of my loved ones, how could i breakthrough to tell them how bad it is at work. 

Neither do i know how to explain to them how stress I am. 

Sometimes, I just cry to sleep. 

& then when I wakes up the next day, Its another day yet again.

That's  how i motivate myself.

But, I'm overloaded.......

*Miss Rx badly too... Its a month to June soon.. He left us physically for so so long.  Visiting him isn't enough.. But it felt close.

Could never forget how he looks like.

Could never forget the day I'm broke with the news.

Could never forget how bad we all took it..

Could never forget him.... 

How could I?