*[ February 03, 2009 ]*
22:09
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At several a time, I would dream to transform to a butterfly.
... its just a way for me to run away from things.
Running from the uglify world.
So much of prioritizing, negligence, hopes from ppl, time mgt....
Who can do it right??? Who can make sure things goes perfect ten...
I certainly cant.
... i surrender.
Its tiring to prioritize my priorities.
You all make it sounded so easy..
You didnt know how much it hurts me when you said, "fo
rget it, she don't know her priorities".
Yes, i do know i missed the gathering.
I know, but i really couldnt be there.
My circumstances are different.
But... Nobody understands.. Nobody listens. Neither do i want to explain.
Believe it or not, my heart was there.
I do have my other commitments.
They too are important.
I cant bring my gf home to a family gathering.
'Cos i know they may not like it.
'Cos i know tongues would wag.
Neither could i spilt myself into two and appear in both situations.
I got to make my choices.
Its hard to have them all tgt, so i had to be there, i want to be there.
Sorry if i've disappointed anyone of u.
But its hard on me. Really.
I love you all, still.
Pls understand, i too, love her and her family too....
The reason y im having this entry is not 'cos i want to pin point at who or whatsoever.
I just need to let it out.
Im really very stressed up over things. =(
22:09
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