Not a good sign, I know. 

How often do you hear or tell a 'i love you' or 'i miss you' to friends around you?

How often do you say only good things or rather things that would not hurt without being a hypocrite?

The world is about nastiness, foaming up lyings and cruelty...

Does it came across to ur mind if you've hurt anyone ard u physically, emotionally, psychologically? 

Come to think of it, from my growing up days.......

I am always down in thw worst rotten luck.. *lady luck always refuse to be by my side

I suck at having alot of friends.

Its always this scenario..

Right at the start, i will have many many friends..

Then, I lose them one by one; 'cos of some sort of reasons..

Then, I will get backstab like manyyyyy times..

At the end, I'm all alone...

When i say i get into alot of such shitty scenarios, I meant what i say.

When closed ones talk to me, they would tell me things like:

Identity 1: you know, that's life" 

Identity 2: "you're just too weak & lousy"

Identity 3: "you are just too nice~"

Identity 4: "you only need a few bosom friends"

Identity 5: "its filtering out who ur true friends really are"

You know, those feeling sucks alot.

I cant be a loner-loner.. I know i cant..

At times, I really hope that my life could be much more beautify.

I know it sounds greedy but part of myself wish that i can be good at everything and anything..

Wont it be nice? (*sounds like the slogan of carbury's chocolate)

*Look, I'm not trying to be emo here. I am just looking back at how I scrap through my days after years. I know who love me and who treats me real and well. Thanks to them, they make me, me...