september, october; it hadnt been a very good months for me. i know i've mention it before already... but just felt that this is a pretty emo-week for me. perhaps its pms or maybe its 'cos i'm just too free.
Not much of smooth sailing days to pass by with, it was complicate with much emotional struggles. Life has to go on, i know, i know. I am already been very opimistic about how i should react to situations, to my feelings...
do i really know mysef well, or enough?
maybe its the over confident tingy in me that could explain why i'm feeling the way i am. i like to feel important.. but i guess what you prefer always don suit your means. sometimes, i feel like crying. sometimes, i feel like flaring up. sometimes, i just don wan to bother. hmm.. i know what it sounds like.. crazy huh? hahas... i think i might need anti depressants. or perhaps some kind of therapy.
I dont have many friends, come to think of it. i seldom had the priviledge to talk to them thru the phone. sometimes, i feel pathetic, at times. human beings are unsatisfied basically. i wonder if i sld be happy abt it..... 'cos at least i'm a human being..
come to think of it again. i feel that the fengshui or predictions books are actually kind of accurate. hahas.. i sedom believe in such things. i need to zhuan yun and i need to block all xiao ren(s) ard me!
what i do now, is to try keep myself happy. keep myself occupied. I'm feeling feverish... not feeling very well...
i miss the happy box...
i will be back soon for pictures.. ;)
*Just wan be random here;
I LOVE MY LOVED ONES.. My Family, 3.1, Ryan & Kyan, My baby.
